So life is crazy. I don't know how to deal with all the pain that comes with being in a long distance relationship. I love him and I'm not going to leave him. But I can't afford to move closer to him and he can't find a job here that is in his field. I get so frustrated because there is nothing I can do and I know I take it out on him and I shouldn't. The stupidest things make me angry and I can't figure out how to control. So tell me this... What do you do when you are trapped in the life you have and you hate it? I want to be with him and because of certain factors.. aka money and religion... we can't live together until we are married because of religion and we can't afford to get married let alone get engaged. I want it... I want the promise of forever that first step. It sucks knowing I can't have it for a while. I love my friends and I love my boyfriend... he is the love of my life. BUT something needs to change... I don't know what or when or how but it needs to. I'm sick of being angry and depressed. So if anyone can help let me know!!
I love you all. My friends are amazing and thank you for listening to all of my crap and putting up with me. I know I'm not always pleasant but you guys always stick by me.
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So, I think it's funny how each of us thanked our friends for puttin up with our venting! It shows that I'm here for you and you're here for me... I say we go out for dinner or just drinks and talk about all this stuff cuz i think even though theyre different situations its the same feeling- the feeling that something needs to be done now before its lost forever. I actually read a book that may help you with some of the money issues... Lemme know what ya think! <3
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